031: Holes // POEM
I have people shaped holes in my heart,
One, where only you’d fit.
These holes are always with me
Though sometimes, I forget.
I’ll be going about my day
When suddenly it hits.
A memory so vivid strikes
Heavy in how it sits.
Where once the smell of cedar
Would make me think of you,
It now just makes me sad for
All the things we’ll never do.
Because these you shaped holes
Will remain, forever empty.
I fill them with memories of us
And the things we could not be.
The truth is, those you shaped holes
Aren’t the only things I fear.
It’s more the sense of failure
Than the fact that you’re not here.
Because the fact you left like that
Was the least surprising part.
That emptiness you left me with
is not what destroyed my heart.
What began as a simple you shaped hole
morphed into a self doubt.
So when I fall deep in these holes
I fear I’ll never come back out.
I remind myself of my power
in those moments of despair.
because growth comes from resistance
And that we’ll always share.
Although these people shaped holes
Will always remain unfilled.
I can be proud of how I overcame
The you shaped hole you instilled.